Talk To Yourself

Talk to yourself sometimes,

It may seem crazy and weird.

But this can also be a tool of achievement.

A tool when well utilized can get you further.

Use positive affirmations on yourself.

Convince yourself that you can accomplish your goals

And believe it. Who knows?

It could be the missing link.

I Once Wanted

I wanted to be known, to be famous

To be adored, a demi god.

I wanted to be popular, admired

To have it all, to have it big

I wanted to matter

To be the in thing

The big thing on airwaves

The sensation on social media

The most sought after talent

I wanted to turn heads as I walk on the streets

To know that I got it all.

I wanted to speak and be listened to

To ever be right and perfect

To be it

Then I heard them speak

That it is not about me but God

And it pierced my heart deep

Why is He that selfish?

All glory to him?

I wanted some

And so I stopped

I stopped dreaming

I stopped trying to be

I was ok with being nothing

I was ok not mattering

I hid and remained ordinary

But now I know better

I know where to hide, where to be found

I know why He is selfish, I can see what he means

And I want to be part of that meaning

I will do my best and be the best

I will be his slave, his servant, his delight

I will position self to reflect his light as much

I will be aggressive to get hold of his call

I will move forward and desire greater spheres

I will seek his kingdom and its righteousness

And I will do this for him

Knowing they might reject me

Knowing I may not be sought after

Rather I will be despised

Knowing I may not be the in thing

I may never be the big sensation

But I will still do it

And in case all I ever wanted came true

It will not for me be

But for him who got hold of me

For I once wanted, but now I know.

Saving Face

I have tried to save face

When I felt I was losing the race

In pursuit of greatness and fame

How could I handle the shame?

I sought ways to survive

Only to build up stress and strife

I have learnt I have no face to save

But grace to have

He didn’t bring me this far to leave

He wants out of me a beautiful thing sewn

In responding to his call, I will be shown

Coz am not just called but chosen

To keep trusting him at my lowest

To push through this life's test

And walk with him to the greatest

I keep faith I keep right

His grace has given me sight

Not for my own pleasure and consumption

For his glory and his mission of redemption

Regardless of my circumstances

I will keep faith in all instances

For you may think I am losing the battle

Yet, all works for good to lift his mantle

I have no face to save

But grace to have

TWO AS ONE

The two became one

And that was not division

It was a multiplication of lives

From two journeys to one

So be careful

Not to divide (half) the one

For when two became one

It was not division

The two became one

And that was not subtraction

It was an addition of strength

From two different hearts to one

So be careful

Not to subtract the one

For when two became one

It was not subtraction

The two became one

Removing the brackets

To the change of position

From singularity to oneness

So be careful

Not to think its life as usual

For when two became one

It was a shift from within

The two became one

And that was not a mathematical error.

It is a mystery of God

How two become one

So be careful

Not to think it was a mistake

For when two became one

It was a mathematical (divine) mystery.

(This poem was inspired by BODMAS, a mathematical formula to sort algebra equations).

Dead Intentions

I have been intending to pray today
But my day just slipped away
I woke up late I could not sit quiet
All day on the rush, now the sun has set
My body aches, my soul is weary
I am still intending to pray early
Before sleep overtakes my eyes
And my intention dies.

I have been intending to save young
But my income is never enough
I have a side hustle to complement
A busy schedule as a complement
My start scares my ends to meeting
I am still intending to start saving
Before living overtakes my life
And my intentions strife

I have been intending to do great
But my dreams seem not to fit
I try this and try that and fail
A jack of all, now I trail
My passion is turning into greed
I am still intending to plant my seed
Before change of seasons hinder
And my intentions wither.

I have been intending to live right
But my sins are as red as scarlet
I have bad examples to point at
A reason why the narrow path I can't
My hope is that hell I will miss
I am still intending to stop the tease
Before death unites me with serpent
And my soul has no to time to repent.

I am still intending

Then What?

They say life is a journey,
That life is a race.
I guess that why,
Many seem in a hurry,
Rushing, running and chasing.

But have you ever stopped to ask?

We wake up early to beat the jam,
Beat ourselves hard to get bread and jam
Work hard to make it big and find our freedom
Rushing, running and chasing.

But have you ever stopped to ask?

Why are you rushing?
What are you chasing after?
Where are you running to?

Then what?

What are you chasing after?

And then?
And then?
And then?

A Day Is Coming

A day is coming, and now's not

When I, I will be more not.

And this handsome me, ll'start to rot

I hope the other side won't be hot.

A day is coming, and I know not

When my portion of air will run out

And my spirit within will sizzle out.

I hope the other side won't lock me out.

A day is coming, and more will follow

When you will be filled with sorrow

Desiring to see me or hear me speak

I hope from this side you won't break.

A day is coming, and many you'll remember

When I was here, an ordinary member

And memories will flood your heart

I hope from this side you won't regret.

A day is coming, for you and for me

When we will be long gone

And everything we held, be long left

I hope you will let go and let in,

A day is coming. 

When that day comes, you go

When that day reaches, you depart

When that day appears, you disappear

When that day ends, you begin. 

A day is coming, be ready.

Am I A Random?

I will never know how it would have been

Had I been born in another generation

Probably I would have been a village hero

Or just an ordinary pauper

Maybe a rejected quarantined leper

Or a priest under the mugumo tree

Truly I will never know

How it would have been

I will never know how it would have been

Had I been born in different continent

Probably I would have skied on the snow

Or lived as a native in the Mao forests

Maybe I would have been a desert runner

Or just another brat in New York

Truly I will never know

How it would have been

I will never know how it would have been

Had I been born in different religion

Probably I would have long hair and a turban

Or just an ordinary obese Buddhist monk

Maybe a world’s wanted terrorist

Or an Indian temple master

Truly I will never know

How it would have been

I will never know how it would have been

Had I been born in a different family

Probably I would have been royalty

Or a trained witchdoctor

Maybe the son of a billionaire

Or a bastard in the village

Truly I will never know

How it would have been

I will never know how it would have been

Had I been born a different gender

Probably I would have been my father’s favorite

Or the one who brings children home for mum to raise

Maybe a perfect example for my generation

Or just another ugly fat depressed girl

Truly I will never know

How it would have been

I will never know how it would have been

Had I not been born

Who would my wife be married to?

How would have my parents lived their lives?

Who would have been my siblings’ big brother?

Would someone else have written this poem?

Truly I will never know

How it would have been

But now I know something that has been

ME

Son to peasant farmers

A Black male African

Born a Y generation

And a follower of Christ

Truly I will never know

If I am just a RANDOM

Had I Not Been My Own Shepherd

Had the Lord been my shepherd, I wouldn't be in want.

For I led myself to what I thought was greener pastures

And now I cannot afford to pay the water bill

Neither am I enjoying the manicured green lawns -

They have signs "KEEP OFF GRASS" all over.

I watch how onlookers enviously admire,

If only they knew what is behind my smile.

Had the Lord been my shepherd, I wouldn't be thirsty.

For I led myself to what I thought was quiet waters

And now I cannot seem to capture the so desired

The more I accelerate towards it

The further it runs away from me

Thirstier and drained,

I now figure it's a mirage on my path.

Had the Lord been my shepherd, I wouldn't be in fear.

For I led myself through the valley of the shadow of death

And now I cannot figure out what is going on

Neither can I find my way out nor my way back

Darkness engulfs my already beaten soul

I can hear voices approaching from a distance

And am so sure that is not my help.

Had the Lord been my shepherd, I wouldn't be in shame.

For I prepared a table for myself, in the presence of my enemies

And I cannot stand the ridicule and the humiliation -

Coz my cup runs dry.

Neither can I utter a word of defense

Nor answer back their mocking.

Surely, strife and drama follows me

And I have dwelt in my desolate house

For some time.

The Signpost

Are you standing?
And will not be moved?
Watch out
You could be a signpost.

A signpost is on the way
But it will never experience the journey
It has never been to the place it is leading people
And it does not have intentions of getting there
It will never get there
It will never arrive.

A signpost knows the destination
But it will never enjoy the journey
It directs many to the place they ought to go
Though it has never directed itself
It has no desires to go
It has arrived.

A signpost is of help to the lost
But it will never know how lost it is
It rescues many from missing the way
Though it never asks for help for itself
Loudly it demonstrates what it will never become
Who will rescue the signpost?
And those who sought it's counsel?
Lo! This signpost
This signpost is actually showing the wrong direction

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